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On the day I die

 

On the Day I Die

FEBRUARY 29, 2016 / JOHNDPAV
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On the die I day a lot will happen.
A lot will change.

The world will be busy.

On the day I die, all the important appointments I made will be left unattended.  The many plans I had yet to complete will remain forever undone.grieving angel

The calendar that ruled so many of my days will now be irrelevant to me.  All the material things I so chased and guarded and treasured will be left in the hands of others to care for or to discard.     The words of my critics which so burdened me will cease to sting or capture anymore. They will be unable to touch me.

The arguments I believed I’d won here will not serve me or bring me any satisfaction or solace.  All my noisy incoming notifications and texts and calls will go unanswered. Their great urgency will be quieted.  My many nagging regrets will all be resigned to the past, where they should have always been anyway.

Every superficial worry about my body that I ever labored over; about my waistline or hairline or frown lines, will fade away.  My carefully crafted image, the one I worked so hard to shape for others here, will be left to them to complete anyway.  The sterling reputation I once struggled so greatly to maintain will be of little concern for me anymore.

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